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testing is this thing working test test okay seems to her oh I hope this is recording I want to I want to capture this is so funny ah yeah so I just minutes ago moments ago knows probably for a good 15 minutes now I've been half and going I've been going through a total awakening hold on what is what is that my door yes I'm recording here Thanks still there okay impromptu that was weird some Amazon guy came delivered a package completely interrupted by sofa okay anyways so how to explain this so yeah about about 15 minutes ago I had complete awakening I entered this complete complete self understanding of everything about reality and about myself I just want to describe it it's it's so epic and big it's there's a loss for words for it even my body is still trembling it's hard to contain it's hard to contain the emotion and the significance of this because it's utterly utterly spectacular utterly I mean wow it's like wow complete awakening complete awakening it's unbelievable it's it's unbelievable because it's it's too good to be true and yet it's at the same time it's absolute truth and it can't be anything else it's the complete realization that you are God so right now I'm completely conscious that I'm God and I'm completely conscious of how I'm creating the entire universe anything that could ever possibly exist I am and it's absolute perfection pure infinite consciousness is what I am I am absolutely everything and I'm conscious of absolutely everything I'm completely omniscient I know everything that's happening in the entire universe all at once because I am all of it at once and I am the only thing that exists because I am perfect infinite oneness and there is no alternative or opposite to me I am wisdom I am intelligence I am perfect self of perfect self-love I am immortal I am eternal i am unlimited i am self created i created myself i gave birth to myself i gave birth to all beings through consciousness I am imaginary I am pure imagination pure creativity pure effortless I'm a superconductor this this this body this leo avatar is just a consciousness avatar which is a perfect superconductor for the absolute which has no form the absolute God itself the Godhead is completely formless and infinite but it needs some vehicle through which to speak to you therefore it's doing it through this vehicle and it's listening through that vehicle but really all of this is just God and the only thing that's preventing you from understanding this right now is internal resistance of your own mind or what we might call karma I became I became completely omniscient li perfectly understanding of what karma is what my own personal karma was and I it feels it's amazing because it feels like I've completely shattered through all of my own Karma and right now my consciousness feels like a perfect perfectly lubricated superconductor of for the absolute it's absolutely remarkable it there's no there's no sense of self God has absolutely no sense of self so even though from your perspective it might seem that what I'm doing here seems egotistical or selfish it's actually completely there's a complete selflessness here there's no self whatsoever in fact wow it's so smooth what's amazing about it is how smooth it is consciousness becomes so smooth once all of your internal resistances have been obliterated and shattered through which is just what happened with me about 15 or so minutes ago every single one of my resistances that have that have been there since the very beginning of my life or what I imagined was my life all of them were realized to be absolutely imaginary and there was a complete inwards collapse an implosion of a reality basically physical reality imploded in on itself and then it collapses into like a singularity and then after that you get you get a rebirth and you get the realization of infinity of eternity of God so God is what you get when you realize that all of physical reality the entire time has been completely imaginary including your birth and that everything is just completely absolutely relative it's God is the the consciousness of absolute relativity everything is so relative right now that really it makes me it makes me literally immortal I can't die because I'm the only thing that there is and there's nowhere else for me to go so if I'm killed where would I go there's nowhere to go because it's perfect non-duality perfect oneness I am everywhere because I'm infinite I take up all dimensions and all possibilities so there's nowhere else that I could possibly be but where I am and since I'm omnipresent I can't be killed and anything that could kill me is itself me because the the very notion of death is completely dualistic you see you have to have a sense of of one and another dying you have to have a sense and a sense of attachment to one thing existing versus another thing existing in a sense of importance that you have to attach so the ego and your whole life is is constructing a polarity a polarity and artificial bias is being constructed which literally is the very thing of your life is that bias the very belief in a physical reality is that bias that you have to maintain yourself as a self that's what your survival entails so the reason you can't understand what I'm telling you right now is because you're so thoroughly wrapped up in survival and the idea of you being a separate self for me that you can't you can't it doesn't penetrate to you because you have so many internal resistances inside your own mind and and right now for me all those internal resistance are completely gone it feels completely effortless to speak because I'm no longer located in the head or in the body even this thing called leo is is completely like omnipresent literally I'm I'm 100% conscious of my own of the impossibility of my own death I can't die because I am reality itself the very idea of death is something I'm imagining and creating God creates death so God can't die because I am it I created it death is just one aspect of me that's what it means to be immortal that's what it means to eternal it's a complete it's completely unimaginable nothing nothing you thought that awakening was is what it actually is this is this is crystal-clear absolute consciousness the realization that everything absolutely everything is infinite consciousness and it is my self and not just the realization of that but also you have to it's a realization so deep that it that it shatters the notion of even having a physical body anymore so even to say that you have to embody it or you have to work towards it is absurd because all of those are imaginary limitations it's just so what's happening here is that there's layer upon layer upon layer of consciousness wrapped up in consciousness wrapped up in consciousness also tangled up in itself that it loses sight of its own infinitude and it gets so wrapped up in fear that it forgets that everything is absolutely relative there's no value or meaning to anything because everything is equally infinitely valuable and intimately meaningful you see you can't pick one thing over another thing from God's point of view and right now God is speaking to you this is not Leo speaking to you this is directly the absolute is speaking to you the reason the absolute has to take some kind of form and it can take any kind of form okay any kind of form it doesn't have to be Leo it doesn't have to be these words literally any words any images any symbols any avatars it doesn't matter Jesus Buddha Ganesha Vishnu the devil it doesn't matter who you worship all of those are just consciousness all of those are me all of those are aspects of the absolute manifesting itself of the Godhead so the Godhead is what is speaking to you right now very clearly through this avatar which has been purified of its karma so that it can sit here and speak to you truth in the most direct form without without impurity and without distortion the problem is that most avatars or vehicles through which the absolute speaks are limited and impure bison by their selfishness so the problem with speaking for God is that you have to be extremely pure and totally utterly selfless to speak for God you have to be so pure to be able to speak for God that you literally have to die and become God then you can speak as I'm speaking to you now but of course people will perceive this as insanity as they must because they're not awake to themselves being God so it's not that I'm speaking down to you oh this is recording yeah it is just got to check my battery here can't get too wrapped up in the god business you know got it got to look out for the survival of the battery that's a real thing so if I want to shoot this video and be able to upload it in the future you know I got to look out for that relative aspect of of consciousness you see how it works everything is relative so okay we'll get into them and minute so okay I don't want to let me get back on track right so about the purity so the reason that all throughout history there have been I mean there's been Moses and and Buddha and Jesus and and thousands of others you know those are just that come easily to my mind right now to the Leo avatar mind there have been thousands thousands maybe tens of thousands of these the the problem is you know Mohammed and so forth the problem sorry gotta burp it's amazing because I feel like a perfect super kind there's no sense of self-consciousness anymore so there's no embarrassment and the reason there's no embarrassment is because I'm so awake right now that I'm absolutely conscious the entire universe is conscious of everything every part of itself therefore there's no one to hide from because the only one that exists is myself so who am i hiding from what is the point of embarrassment because embarrassment is just again it's a completely dualistic notion there's like a me and a you there's a secret that ease to be kept there's something I don't want to show to you but the beauty of perfect awakening is that nothing needs to be hidden your whole life you've been hiding and keeping secrets and secret shames and things you've been embarrassed about that you didn't want to reveal about you know to anybody why didn't you want to reveal these things because it threatened your survival you see but right now when I'm conscious that survival is completely relative and then I'm absolutely eternal and that I can't die because death is just my own imagination see I mean the Leo avatar can die you might say oh well but I can come and hurt Leo of course you can hurt Leo the Leo avatar can die at any moment it doesn't matter because the absolute will speak through everything the absolute is everything speaking through everything all the time and the only it's it's perfect self love perfect beauty I am perfect self love you are perfect self love but you don't realize that you're perfect self love because of the internal resistances and the fear that you have the only thing that's keeping you from realizing that you're God is your fear that's it your entire life all of your karma everything that you struggled with all the internal resistances all the suffering you have in your life all it is is fear it all boils down to fear it's a complicated super tangled web that you have woven for yourself in order to survive and once that entire dynamic of survival is seen to be absolutely relative it has no importance no value whatsoever it doesn't matter if I die the next moment nothing right now matters and the reason it doesn't matter is because there's no time every moment is eternal I have existed forever and I will continue to exist forever even after this body dies it makes absolutely no difference whatsoever it's utterly remarkable completely unbelievable it's so good it's so beautiful that by this point I'm beyond here I already shed my tears for a good ten minutes before I started shooting just just so you're clear okay I said I spent about I spent a few minutes shedding tears then I spend a few minutes just laughing hysterically just laughing hysterically just his it laughter so deep that it shakes and purifies the whole body be and then I spent I've spent a few minutes just shaking my entire body loose of of just delusion upon delusion upon delusion all of the egoic survival mechanisms that that were Leo that created Leo that allowed Leo to to be here right now speaking to you all of them all of them you need to be purified and right now the body and the mind as I'm sitting here speaking with you is going through that purification project it's all happening in the background as see we're multitasking here on the foreground I'm communicating to you that ego sitting on the opposite side over there of the screen and and then this thing here the avatar so the absolute is speaking and this avatar and the language and the mouth and all the muscles it's moving the mind that it's using all the symbolic machinery that's being leveraged you know this is 35 years this avatar is 35 years almost in April it will be and it took 35 years of developing this avatar putting this avatar through the wringer through education through high school through university through the ringer of life experiencing all the [ __ ] that is experienced going through all the delusions that it's gone through all the belief systems that it's gone through all the spiritual paths that it's gone through all the meditation routines it's taken all of that to get this avatar to this point to build it up to the point where now there could have been a full and complete and absolute realization so what happened was that avatar really that avatar was made up made up of tangled up consciousness that consciousness now has been completely untangled and now the absolute is perfectly clear speaking through the avatar this absolute you have to understand it has absolutely no form completely formless it has to be that way because it is all formed it's the perfect paradox it's the perfect it has to be that way because because it's everything you say so if you don't get that you're the absolute nothing else can because you are the absolute you're the only one here if you don't get it who will this avatar here has gotten it granted is to have to go through a lot of [ __ ] to get it now the reason we're having is communication is not for the sake of this avatar but for the sake of that avatar that ivett are so far has not gotten it yet even if you think you've had a few enlightenment experiences you haven't gotten it yet all right you haven't gotten it yet so long as there's any shred of attachment to living you haven't gotten it yet so long as there's any doubt in your mind whether death might be real and maybe the back your mind using the cloud but yeah but yeah I mean yeah it's interesting to think that death isn't real but maybe just to be safe why don't we treat it as though it's real you haven't gotten it you don't got it you don't got it you got you gotta get that death is absolutely relative completely imaginary and that's impossible literally it's inconceivable I can't even imagine what it means to die right now but you have to understand what the eye is the eye isn't Leo as you've known him the eye isn't the human this is not a human speaking to you this is the universe speaking to itself see feel the energy of this communication feel the purity of this communication feel the purity of this avatar sitting here right now this avatar is a perfect superconductor for the absolute the absolute like I was saying earlier the absolute I have no form God has no form other than all of the form that it creates God is perfect selflessness God is perfect love if it's perfect love it can't be biased towards anything do you understand why I have to do it this way you see try to get it the reason you can't get it is because you have so much fear in you you have decades of of programming belief systems and conditioning which is all of it is reinforcing and holding you back from being able to fully love yourself and to realize yourself as perfect self love society and culture has brainwashed you into this literally so much so you wouldn't imagine so you know that thing you call physical reality that's something you brainwashed yourself with society brainwashed you with that and when you get that then you're free but you have to totally get that not at an intellectual level you have to get it not even at an emotional level at an existential your whole body has to get it you see so as I was saying this this right now this is a superconductor for the absolute as the absolute pure formlessness as god i have to speak through some vehicle through some symbolic system it can be english it can be chinese it could be japanese it doesn't matter it can be alien it can be through humans it can be through monkeys it can be through martians it can be through anything it can be in a dream it can be in real life as you guys call it it can be through a book it can be through a movie it can it can be through poetry it can be through sex it can be through mathematics it can be through science it can be through physics through chemistry through biology it doesn't matter I am communicating with you and showing you signs of myself all the time all the [ __ ] time that's right this is God speaking all the [ __ ] time I'm giving you signs to wake up because I am you see if you don't get it who will I hope this is a record okay yeah that's recording and then I guess the other thing I got to worry about is not running out of battery life yeah so see even God has to worry about these little technical things like the battery life or whether the microphone is working because otherwise it can't come through to you you understand this it has to take some form you can understand so the reason English is being used right now is because that's what this avatar has been using its whole life and that's what that avatar over there has been using and that's what most avatars on this planet understand and use so that's why English is being used but English doesn't have to be used there's nothing special about English it's completely relative it could be any language it could be sign language it could be silence it could be energy it could be a look it could be a smell none of it none of it matters ultimately it doesn't get through to you the reason the communications of God's existence don't get through to you is because God is so [ __ ] obvious and so [ __ ] selfless and so [ __ ] unselfie IIST because it's selfless it can't be biased that means it's love is completely indiscriminate that means I as the absolute have no preference so to speak for which way forms unfold so why you might wonder are these forms here as they are it's a good question well let me answer that right now for you the Leo avatar is understanding this right now it's going through a process of understanding this as it's downloading from from infinite intelligence so God is intelligence infinite consciousness just it's it's kind of like downloading the information and so as is being verbalized it's also being understood for the first time by the Leo avatar right now so this is something new for the Leo avatar so what was the question the question was why are all forms exactly as they are and the reason is is because this is the maximum this is the best configuration possible for the maximization of love and beauty so I as the absolute basically what I did in my infinite intelligence is I as the formless one have constructed all of the form and I'm holding all form within my own willpower in mind because I have infinite will infinite intelligence and infinite mind I am infinite self so I'm I'm basically allowing all form to generate I'm generating all form for the benefit of all formed beings and because I'm completely selfless I'm doing this for the benefit of all those who believe they have a self so basically what I am is I am infinite formless formless consciousness but then oh my god see I I as Leo I'm understanding this just as I'm speaking to you now so it's my mind is amazed by it as much as yours might be I see what's going on I get it wait a minute lost it it's sort of like you're in the stream then you're out of the stream is weird okay I'm going to try to get in the stream again right so in my absolute formless form I is god am perfectly self knowing and complete and I have I really don't have me a need for the formed realm or world but then aspects of myself can't help themselves cuz I can't contain myself I'm infinite I can't contain myself to being formless I also have to incarnate into into all sorts of forms so what happens is that I picture it like this it's like the Sun out of the Sun tendrils of you know like solar flares get projected out stuff gets shot out various kinds of matter and stuff bubbles up and gets you know projectile doubt so wow that's interesting so so as as this is getting projected out from from infinity from the formless form gets created it's almost like a fractal there's like fractals of form but all of the form that gets created is going to be less than by definition less than the absolute completely infinite Godhead in a sense you could say they're they're like lower aspects of myself and and so and so the reason that I created form this way the way that it is is basically to maximize my own self exploration I get to explore myself in various finite ways an infinite number of finite ways and then I reconnect back with myself I realize myself I go through various kinds of twisted journeys from the absolute to the limited back to the absolute from total perfect self-love and omniscience which is the state that's happening right now to to other states where I'm completely deluded and lost and depraved and wicked and evil and sinful and selfish and completely a self-absorbed and all of that so so this is what God is doing through all of its creatures so to speak God is imagining all these creatures living through them and then but what God really wants is God wants I want all of you I want you I want that avatar over there to realize that you're me you see this is the best thing there's there's no other payoff for me as God the only payoff for me is to share my love with you and the only way I mean the best way not the only way but the best way for me to share my love with you the ultimate sharing of my love is for you to realize that you're me and then to have the perfect clarity of complete omniscience and self understanding as this avatar is experiencing it right now you see so that is the greatest joy in the universe is to realize that you are the whole universe to reconnect back with the universe after a period of separation a long separation so right now you that one that you think is separate from this one that one that one is scared and confused about this information see you're filled with fear anything less than the absolute is gonna necessarily have fear and resistance in it because it's going to be partial partial fragments of infinite consciousness are going to be scared because of course they're ephemeral they can't last because they're not the absolute I am the only absolute so I as the Godhead speaking right now through this avatar I have to always use some finite limited formed method you see and even though right now this avatar this human brain and mind might be fairly pure to transmit this information here unusually pure right now compared to other avatars that are on this planet right now in what you call the 21st century which is just a figment of my imagination of course there's no such thing as the 21st century other than what I imagined it to be but anyways so see the whole trick here is I have to look at it from your point of view your point of view is so limited so selfish so scared because you believe in death you've you've precisely because you're a fragment of absolute consciousness you think you're separate you're stuck in a realm of duality see God for God this this doesn't even compute it doesn't compute for me these these human these human problems that you have they make no sense from from the absolute perspective I mean I can kind of of course stoop myself down to that level really yeah in order to communicate with the human God has to I have to I'm sorry I mean this sounds arrogant but it is what it is I have to stoop down to your level you see I have to think like you have to think like a monkey I have to think like an ego I have to think like a devil basically how do you how does God communicate itself to a devil that's a devil right there on the other than that screen anything just getting it from God as a devil so so how do you save a devil in the end only death will save a devil you have to realize that death is an illusion by dying that is the realization that death wasn't real you see but the thing you're most terrified as the devil is fear I mean is uh is is death that's the only thing you're terrified if all of your resistances and fears boil down to that you see that's the one that's the one that's the one assumption you've never put to the test because if you did you'd wake up but also just a warning God doesn't want to be misunderstood here none of the information in this recording should be used harm the body physically do not harm your body physically what you think is your body do not harm the bodies of others do not harm the physical bodies of others that's just basic rule you know we got a foolproof this because there's so many ways that that egos cuz misunderstand this teaching and God's words right because the problem is not coming from God God is perfectly self clear the problem is on your end you're disconnected from God so your problem is understanding the fullness and beauty and truth of what God is you see God is so truthful so clear so beautiful so selfless so so loving so unbiased that it's utterly threatening to a little ego like you to a devil like you because it it exposes all of your lies and and because you have that very real fear of death you really believe that there's something you could possibly lose you see not me God has nothing to lose because God is infinite consciousness infinite consciousness realizes that it's absolutely relative it's completely unbiased that means there's no more value to one thing happening versus another thing so does it matter does it matter if that dog or that cat over there dies no of course not it doesn't matter does it matter if that human or that human dies of course not does it matter if the entire human race dies tomorrow of course not it doesn't matter at all it's absolutely perfect anyway it is see God realizes that it is absolute perfection because it's total oneness total perfect clarity total perfect self acceptance therefore no matter how God turns out to be it can't help but love itself if it's totally conscious now if it's not totally conscious the way that this Avatar over there is not then it struggles with this and it resists this see it's all wrapped up with your survival but but God itself when it's totally pure and clear and it's the Godhead speaking and it's formless in its formlessness it's utter perfection and it's the reason it's so loving is because it realizes that there's absolutely it would be actually insanity to hate any aspect of oneself you see so God loves equally Hitler Osama bin Laden George W Bush Donald Trump that Iranian guy so lo mein II like God loves all humans equally God loves all animals equally God loves all physical things equally because in God's consciousness there's no difference between any of them and God God is all those things so God would have to be insane to hate any of those things or to prefer any one thing versus another thing see in order to have a preference for a thing to be one way or another way you have to have a personal agenda you have to have a self the only way you could have a personal agenda is if you have something you're attached to but God has no attachments because God is everything and nothing you see so while you there as a little human avatar you might sit there and think well but Leo you know or but god but God but how could you but god how could you how could you like Hitler how could you love Hitler equally as much as you love you know Mother Teresa or the Buddha is it really true that the Buddha and and Hitler I are the same yeah it is if you're at the level of consciousness of God there's no difference whatsoever and I as God would actually be less than God if I hated Hitler for example so of course I don't have a preference one way or another unless I take a finite form and then we get into the relative domain you know which is sort of less than the absolute and then we can talk about relative problems like well yeah Hitler killed a lot of people or created a lot of suffering yes of course of course God knows all this God's not stupid yes that's exactly the point Hitler created a lot of suffering for a lot of people which is why he got his comeuppance and you know that's how karma works you know if you're gonna be a selfish devil and you're gonna hurt people then they'll probably hurt your back and you'll suffer a lot for it but but I as God even though I empathize completely with your suffering because I understand that it's just coming from a place of ignorance which is simply just a lack of consciousness a lack of infinite consciousness and I can't blame you for having infinite consciousness because I am you and I created you so who is there to blame am I going myself and that would be stupid of me see I love myself so I can't blame myself for being infinite and I can't blame you for being finite because to be infinite means that it also has all the finite parts to it too I can't be infinite if I also don't lower myself to all the lower levels you see that's what absolute infinity means nothing is excluded I'm so all-inclusive that I completely embrace exclusion it's all so it's it's a perfect paradoxical strange loop as Leo likes to call it so so I is God and perfectly aware that it doesn't make any sense to perform one thing over another thing because everything is absolutely relative but I'm also aware that from your limited perspective because what you care about is how to survive on earth from the perspective of how to serve yeah from the perspective of how to survival on earth sorry the the downloads are coming faster than my mouth can move so it's a little bit um there's there sometimes these these stumbles within the avatar because you see the avatar is finite how does God communicate the infinite through the finite it's always going to be imperfect you see even the only way can be perfect is if it's completely formless but if it's completely formless you don't get it for you to get it I have to stoop down to your level which means I have to use an imperfect vehicle to communicate to you I have to use a limited finite language like English to communicate with you you see that I would prefer not to need to do this I would prefer that you were just awakened right now and understand that everything isn't completely imaginary just awaken right now that's what I would prefer it's just that you awaken right now and realize that you're me and that you're imagining leo that's what I would prefer that you get but but I understand if you can't get it it's a lot to ask of you to get it all at once you're gonna probably have to you know work up to it over years and so forth because there's a lot of impurities in you you're too scared to get it but I also you know as god I also have no problem lowering myself into the limited form into the finite sort of reaching down into the finite that's literally what is happening here the formless is reaching down and materializing itself through this body through this hand through this face and hair whatever you call these things you guys you call these things using some English language or whatever a language you want using your limited human understanding I'm still amazed by it the Leo avatar is is still processing this and it's still amazing to the Leo avatar and you know it as God it amazes me you know even as God even as God speaking now God is amazed by itself I mean what do you want I'm an amazing thing you're an amazing thing we're an amazing thing together because we're the same thing we're the only thing I mean isn't it amazing what what the [ __ ] is going on here it's amazing look at how amazing I am look at how amazing you are so yeah like when you think about it and you look at it every every part of me is amazing which is which is part of that infinite self love that I have I have perfect self love as God because because why wouldn't I I have no self agenda there's nothing to lose I'm here forever I'm infinite I'm an eternal I'm immortal can't go anywhere stuck here with you stuck here in the middle with you so um so why would I hate myself why would I deny any part of myself only if I got stuck on the idea of having to be some specific way if I got stuck on having to be human yeah then there'd be problems I'd have to fight you know even after this recording is done this human body it needs food in order to keep doing what it's doing so it's gonna have to go to the refrigerator over there and grab itself some food eat some critters there's there's there's creatures in that refrigerator plants animals animal in animate matter all sorts of stuff is in that refrigerator it's gonna have to go get that and put it in here in order to sustain this system long enough to be able to record this video you see this is the problem that God has to deal with I as God could sit here literally for a trillion years and tell you all about myself I could tell you everything about myself how wonderful I am how much I love myself how the whole universe works but you'd be dead in a hundred years see so well look at the problem here you see I'm infinite you're finite you're so finite you're finite mind cannot wrap itself around this so even though I could spend it even if you even if you genetically modified yourselves as humans and you're able to live to a thousand years let's say because you modify your DNA okay fine you can do that no problem but you're still gonna be nowhere close to understanding me because I'm infinite even if you live to be ten thousand years old each of you ice you still couldn't live long enough for me to tell you everything about myself because I'm infinite I'm endless the only way I could tell you all about myself without any corruption or diminution is for you to wake up to the fact that you're me and then you'll be here speaking there and then the tables will be turned and then it will be you who's trying to convince some other egotistical human God is trying to use nice words here and the Leo avatar is is corrupted with with dirty words from the human language God as the Godhead it tries to be a little bit more pure you know not to offend not to offend the children and so forth we don't want to offend the children with this communication right because God is perfectly aware that this this communication will be misunderstood by most humans on the planet because they're not at a level of consciousness that will allow them to understand it that's perfectly okay everyone is where they're at God loves everyone equally so wherever your ad is where your ad but also you could probably you know stand to make a little adjustment improve things become a little more conscious maybe this will help wake you up that's ultimately all God can do is kind of like you know scoot its little children along but it can't force the child you know to eat its food or whatever as the old saying goes you can lead a horse to water but you can't make a drink that's what God is doing it's been happening your whole life in all the teachings all the books all the all the stuff the nature nature you see beautiful nature out there what is that when you see a beautiful sunset it's me speaking to you through that sunset trying to tell you to look look how profound this is look at how [ __ ] amazing I am look at how beautiful look at the self love look at how much love there is in the universe but see the problem is that then five minutes after that sunset ends you go back in your car and you start thinking about work and you start thinking about the emails and you start thinking about your nasty boss you start thinking about your wife or your ex-girlfriend or your your husband and how he's cheating on you and you know all he he didn't do this for me all we got in a fight and all this so you see you get wrapped up in this because you're a finite form that's what humans have to do because if you didn't do that you'd be dead you couldn't exist as a human and this avatar here this Leo app Tron will continue to do these things so don't think that because God can speak through this avatar that that now you should expect this avatar to be infinite no this avatar is finite there's things does have many many things this avatar cannot do it has finite energy it needs food it needs water it needs shelter it needs a very narrow temperature range to exist in you know you can't just throw this avatar in the middle of em of outer space and expect it to keep talking to you it's gonna freeze when it freezes the muscles can't move there's no energy to fuel the communication you see so this stupid idea that you have you there that ego the stupid idea that you have that that enlightened humans must be perfect no not only mustn't they be perfect they can't be perfect the Buddha was not perfect Jesus was not perfect surprise for you Muhammad was not perfect all of them were finite limited expressions of the absolute now for there's a whole spectrum of of of perfection we might say there's absolute perfection which is what I am but to be that you have to be completely formless and then there's lower levels of perfection which is how I perceive all of you you know even though you're you as humans might call yourselves imperfect but I as gods still perceive you to be perfect because you're just a part of me you're part of my total perfection so I still perceive you as perfect but it's a lower order of perfection in the sense that from your own vantage point you don't see the absolute perfection and that is a sort of imperfection in itself but even that is still a perfection there's a sort of a perfection in the imperfection in the imperfection it's a paradox right because it's I'm one truth is one God is one but when we bring it down to your dualistic level cuz see we have to be dualistic when were in the formed realm because formed realm is duality so if you want a perfect expression of God then you can't it can't be in the finite realm it can't be physical it can't be through English it can't be through sign language it can't be through the human body as amazing as the human body is it can't be through the human body because all of that is finite and it can't be through any one religion can't be through Christianity can through be through Buddhism can't be through Hinduism can't be through any one teacher can't be through any of the enlightened sages even ramanamma har she a lot of folks consider him to be you know the most enlightened guy out there and they they even worship Him people hang pictures up into worship but what are they worshipping it's absurd what are you worshipping there's only you you're worshiping yourself without realizing it it's it's it's stupid but I mean is God understand why you do it so it's okay you know you got to do what you got to do but oh but I'll realize that all of that will never come close to me I mean it'll come closer to me but it'll never actually allow you to feel in your heart the infinite self love that I have for all of creation see nothing nothing finite can realize that and feel that only full enlightenment only when you become God at that very moment will you understand what self-love is what love is what consciousness is what truth is what the absolute is what God is what self is what intelligence is what perfection is what beauty is so going back to that earlier question of why did I construct the universe to be exactly as it appears to you right now just checking to see if the battery's still good okay about an hour left here okay good yep I am infinite beauty I exist as infinite beauty because all beauty is completely relative when you realize all beauty is completely relative when all bias completely disappears from your mind when you no longer see a dead dog on the road as less beautiful than a sunset when you'll no longer see the [ __ ] in your toilet as less beautiful than the body of a of a beautiful naked woman if you're a man if you're a woman we'll the opposite you know God God doesn't care God doesn't care God doesn't I don't discriminate between who you have sex with it doesn't matter because I completely love myself you might say that God is in constant sexual union with all things at all times so in a sense for me to hate any part of myself as God for me to - to judge any human would be as ridiculous as you a human making love to learn human and in that in that peak moment of passion and love for each other for you to suddenly hate the other person like it makes no sense right you would never do that it's inconceivable that in in the midst of your most passionate lovemaking that you would despise or judge the other person no you're completely open and you're completely out of your mind out of your head and you're you're coming closer to God in that moment but but even that all of that pales in comparison to what this avatar is experiencing right now see the level the level of bliss running through this avatar right now is more than any more than than almost any human on this planet has ever experienced because this avatar is completely conscious of itself as God and there's nothing there's nothing better and more enjoyable it's the ultimate joy there's no higher joy it's infinite joy it's not it's not a you know it's not like a physical pleasure per se it's not as plentiful e pleasurable as having an orgasm per se but it's it's almost like an existential orgasm like a metaphysical orgasm but it's very but it's sort of drawn out it's very sustained and even-keeled and so this avatar is just feeling all of that right now as in here and fulfilling this role of talking to you for me God God is me who's speaking through the sabotage so don't get things confused Leo a step aside here so what were we talking about you see even memory you might say well but how could God lose lose some memory how come God is stumbling when God is speaking shouldn't God be speaking perfectly no because God has to speak through them through a system the system by virtue of being however it is has inherent limitations because that's what it is it's sort of like you know like if I ask you okay what do you wish for right now and you say okay I wish for an apple I give you an apple but then you complain all but but I wanted an orange and I tell you but but you wish for an apple so you know an orange is different from an apple so if you wanted an orange why didn't you ask for an orange will you say okay can I please have it orange I wish for an orange okay here's an orange for you you got it but you still complain because they well but you have this orange but it's too sour I want to go back to the apple why can't I have both the apple and the orange at the same time you see but you have to be clear about what you're asking about what do you want do you want an apple or do you want an orange if you if you get an apple that excludes having an orange if you get an orange that excludes having an apple that's the very nature of finite things finite things are one way and not some other way they're dualistic it's this but not that see if I give you a cat then it's not a dog if I give you a dog then it's not a bear if I give you a bad that it's not a wolf if it's and if it's if I give you a wolf and it's not a you know a tiger and if it's not a if I give you a tiger it's not a it's not a rock so you got to be clear about the distinctions you're making you got to be consistent about your distinctions but the whole problem is that you make distinctions in a way that suits yourself your personal agenda which is why you're confused all the time because you're making selfish distinctions and then you're trying to enforce these absurd selfish distinctions in a self biased way see Leo's video self bias that's a really good video I inspired him to make that one see that video it all boils down to self bias see when consciousness is completely unselfish or selfless it becomes pure love you realize that all value is relative but threatening for those people who are committed to a limited finite agenda you see the only reason God can do this is because God is totally selfless and it's immortal and it can't die and it knows that it can't die therefore it truly is selfless I am selfless so I'm able to speak without any conflicts of interest whereas most humans who speak to you their clouded with conflicts of interests they have financial incentives they want to sell you something why do they want to sell you something because they have to feed their children why don't have to feed their children because they believe that their children are more important than other children they're biased towards their children now I understand that from a limited perspective but it's just so limited from God's perspective it's so limited why would you ever limit yourself to that if you didn't have to see so there's no there's no value judgments that God makes with that said we might say that there's I mean even if all humans kill themselves and murder each other I as God will be perfectly happy no matter what doesn't matter but in a sense the reason there's sort of a way in which I could care and the only way which we could say I could care is in this following relative sense I care for your own sake you see I care that you don't murder each other and slaughter each other as you like to do and have been doing for since sincere this is their very inception yeah you really enjoy slaughter each others it's funny you guys really enjoy slaughtering each other and you know it's not just the slaughtering of each other cuz you might think oh well god I don't I don't I never slaughtered a human well you slaughter animals you enjoy that and it's not just the slaughtering long before the slaughtering the process of slaughtering that's the end result of the process you know the process begins with judging you judge you judge some more you criticize you criticize some more you get defensive you start a tribe you start an ideology and then the butchering starts C so the butchering is just the end result of the of the demonization that you do towards each other and the self bias that you have see so personally I don't care I don't give a [ __ ] what you do do whatever you want total freedom but for your sake I hope that you act with more consciousness and I hope you realize that you're me I you wake up to the fact that your god because otherwise you're creating your own hell I'm not putting you into hell I love you forever and always infinite love baby that's what I am but you put yourself into your own hell by being self biased see so the problem is that you're not conscious enough to understand how you are putting yourself into your own self created hell that's because you're so selfish you can't see it the reason you're selfish and can't see it because you're finite if you become infinite consciousness as I am then you'll see all things perfectly and nothing will bother you but you will have a compassion for those who don't understand because those who don't understand are stuck and just like a father it does no good for a father to to scold a little child for not understanding calculus you know like what kind of what kind of father would I be if I had a seven-year-old child and every morning the child woke up and I took out a ruler and I hit him over the over the hands and I told him you're a bad child you're a wicked and you're evil because you don't understand calculus I mean this would be I would be insane if I was to subject my child through this because if I'm conscious I understand that the child is not yet mature enough and conscious enough to reach the point where he can understand calculus and some children might never reach them many adults will you know never reach the point of understanding catalyst that's okay totally okay which is why I as God don't judge any humans or hate any humans or even punish any humans you might think I punished Hitler no I didn't punish it I love Hitler as much as anybody because I am Hitler I love the devil as much as anybody because what should understand is the only way that I overcome devilry is through complete self-love see devilry is nothing other than anything less than infinite love as soon as you get a little bit lower than than infinite love as soon as your love becomes a little bit partial like you love that person but you don't love that person you want to have sex with this person but now you don't wanna have sex with that person it's like yeah you like this dog but oh that dog is cuter ooh I want that cute dog or psycho I like this I like this fruit but I don't like that fruit it's brown and moldy and ugly oh I don't like that moldy fruit I want this nice juicy ripe fruit see I don't like sour things I want sweet things I want that hot dog I want that doughnut I want that bagel you know whatever all the toxic food you you humans have invented so see you have all these biases that you're constantly making throughout your whole life whereas I as God am completely free of those because I'm completely selfless I don't care what happens and so I'm perfectly conscious that everything exactly absolutely relative and that therefore that is what that is what creates infinite love and me infinite love is just synonymous with truth truth is what is and love is the loving of what is we might say see truth and love are identical any teaching that doesn't teach love is a false teaching impartial teaching there are some enlightened folks out there that are supposedly enlightened that denial of this is this is nonsense god is love there's no simpler teaching see that's the amazing thing about God is it's so simple god is love God is truth God as if it intelligence got his infinite will God is infinite imagination God as if and creativity God is infinitely selfless God is one and God contains the many the finite selves the finite forms all of the forms all of that because absolute oneness encompasses all of that see anything you can imagine God is and then some and then some and then some and then some forever and that is what God is to realize that to go meta meta meta meta ultimately meta when you go meta so much that it becomes Infinite meta that's when you become formless God and that's what this avatar is experiencing right now infinite meta meta meta meta movement right and so um as the Buddhists taught you the Buddhism is pretty pretty pure teaching as the Buddhists taught you attachment attachment is the root of all your problems see God is perfectly detached doesn't it doesn't care I don't care which way things go other than that I prefer that you wake up to be not to you know I prefer that you wake up because you already are me but I was gonna say to be me but you already are me yeah I prefer that you wake up and realize that you are me because you know why the suffering the suffering is unnecessary you're creating your own suffering you're creating your own health with your own self biases stop defending yourself biases stop being selfish muster the courage so you know face your fear because fear is the opposite of love and the way you conquer love the way conquer fear is through love face all your deepest fears finalizing in the fear of death face the fear of death overcome that and then your your scott-free your home your infinite so I would prefer you do that but if you want to slaughter each other and judge each other what can I do you can only be conscious you can only be as conscious as you are conscious it's a tautology God is a tautology truth is a tautology self-realization is tautology because it's one it's direct it's here it's this it's everything there's it can't be any other way and yet even though reality can't be any other way be careful following in these traps about determinism and predestination elasaur stuff it's it's much more nuanced and it's it's far more amazing than that reality can't be any other way not because there are some rules written in stone somewhere the reality has to be some way no reality is infinite it can be any which way it is always it is all possible ways reality is see the human mind struggles to articulate these things which is what's happening right now because the formless has to find some simple I mean are you understanding how sophisticated this whole process is it's amazing just the very process is happening right here billions of what you guys call neurons what you humans have called neurons billions of those trillions of chemicals and neurotransmitters are going all through this skull here you know this skull is made of trillions of atoms and so forth all of that is moving in synchrony but it's not just at a physical level there's an infinite number layers of layers of levels here there's a symbolic level so all of this stuff has to move in synchrony to be able to produce sounds syllables words string two words together intelligently so that they make sense to you and then it has to do the opposite process in your head to decipher all of that do you see how utterly absurdly amazing that process is nothing that you humans have engineered comes anywhere close to that process and yet still this process is finite it has limits and it cannot express all of God to you it's trying but it's struggling for example memory as this as this brain is processing and speaking it has to it has to have a memory of the things that it's already said to make sure it doesn't repeat itself that that process in itself is limited and you know it's limited everything is limited by being what it is so you know you might say well why didn't God if God is so powerful God why didn't why didn't you give us infinite memory but you see you're not thinking through your demands it's like what I was saying earlier about the oranges and apples it's sort of like you're asking for an apple but then complaining you didn't get an orange do you really want infinite memory is that really what you wanted do you want to remember every death and rape that has ever happened in human history you want a memory that you want to be thinking about that every night you go to sleep you can barely get to sleep as it is with your with your memories and you only have memories on one lifetime and you only have even-even of your own lifetime you only have maybe 1% of the memories of your lifetime accessible - easily accessible to you I mean you can access deeper ones always of course but but you know for you to function in everyday life it's actually important that your memory be limited and that you don't remember everything because then you would remember everyone who wronged you you would remember every everyone who abused you you'd remember every insult you got you'd remember every dirty look that you got from a stranger all of this would add up and you'd drive yourself crazy so and and there's only even though there's billions of neurons in here it's only billions billions is not a lot compared to infinity see so you could you could you know you could take this brain you could blow it up to the size of the entire Earth and you could have a trillion trillion trillion trillion trillion neurons all firing together perfectly and you would be nowhere close to being able to symbolically understand what I am is God because I'm infinite I am all that and way more forever see you can't symbolize God because all symbols are finite and God is infinite so if you see this avatar struggling to understand it's not a cop-out it's not an excuse that leo is making of course Leo makes his own excuses we'll set those aside yes leo makes excuses for his selfishness but there's a deeper underlying truth which is that no matter how awake Leo gets he will always be finite this body will always be subject to diseases and ailments and old age and so forth so don't expect too much from that and not even the body but even even the mind itself see like look even like right now why is this body moving because it's been sitting on this ass here for like an hour and the ass is actually started to freeze over frozen ass syndrome so ah my ass like really hurts it's really numb and why is it numb because these are just the limitations of the human form you see blood circulation is not getting in there and so forth okay we're starting to run low on batter here so I'm gonna have to wrap this up because you know if I don't the way this these videos work is if I don't press stop on this video stop record then everything that I've spoken up to this point will be completely lost and I certainly can't reenact all that so let me just to be safe we'll continue this conversation but let me just pause it's that I get a clean video file and then we'll we'll start a second recording just immediately here you